most of you already know

but to those who don't: I landed myself in the hospital this weekend. I am ok, just hurt like nutso.

Also, I was soooo wrong about "scrappy". I think my trust will be just that much more harder to get now. *cries*

Why do people do this to other people?

Why do horses plant you in the ER?

Why does my week suck to the extreme?

Why, why why?

-me

Sometimes...

I wonder at people's intentions.

I have obligations...so deal with it. If you really want to "spend time with me" then you would make the time.

Grr.

snow

has kept me in all day. We have so much snow already and it's not letting up.

:(

I really miss Scrappy... I wanted to see him tonight, maybe even all night... but now it won't happen.

Plus ex drama keeps paining me. I'm done with this crap!

number 150!

after this post I will have officially written 150 posts to this site. Geez, I need to get a life.

anywho, I simply wanted to wish all a happy and safe Easter!

Sooo

maybe I was wrong, and maybe they aren't out to get me.

I think that I might be falling into something good with "scrappy." *hopes* We'll see.

I am so happy for me, and for my little sis! We rock! Go us!

All I Want To Do is.....Cry.

Life's got me down lately. Some people try to hurt me, in fact, I think it's their goal in life to hurt me.

WHAT'S UP WITH THAT?

I am pretty much pissed at the world... but all I really want to do is be happy. I wish I was physically hurt, and I feel like sitting in a corner to cry my little eyes out.

*cries all alone*

Possessed

The only explanation of my actions recently must be that I am possessed by something. I have been out past 1am pretty much everyday for a week. Last night I did not get in until 3:30, and then had to wake up at 7:30 to ride both my horses. The 2009 eventing season is lurking, in fact, I have sent in the entry for the first HT. Both Flag and Cassia are going to be competing this year!

Oy, it is only 9, but I am so tired.

More, better, update to come soon.

-Me

A Big welcome to the blogs newest reader!

why?

Why do people set out to try and hurt you? Like they want to put a hole in you and then laugh. Here is a song by Blessthefall called "Rise Up":

Keep your eye focused this time, keep us in front of your sights,
I've waited long for this,
Now it's the time for bliss, I just hope we have the time.
I stand broken, please god hear my cries, he does every time.

How many times have you watched me fall just to smile,
I've been through thick and thin we've struggled through now we smile,
so we're here now just be ready, brace yourself cause were not leaving.

Keep your eye focused this time,
keep us in front of your sights,
I've waited long for this, our time to shine,
I just hope we have the time.
I stand broken, please god hear my cries, he does every time.

Help us get out, help us get out, out into the open,
Help us grow, Rise up rise up.

I stand broken, please god hear my cries,
he does every time.

Keep your eye focused this time,
keep us in front of your sights,
I've waited long for this, now it's the time for bliss,
I just hope we have the time.
I stand broken, please god hear my cries, he does every time


I'm not sure what to do, or where to go from here. Disappointments and trials are around every corner. I guess all I can do is buck up and live. Let whatever happens happen.

What should I feel for "Scrappy?" *confused*