time goes on (so slowly...)

I guess I am feeling better.?.?.?

I did not buy the car, still looking at others. : (

I hope it all pans out soon. I really wish I knew the future and how things turn out. My love life is painful right now, so I want to know if I will ever find a true love, someone who will love me for being me and will feel like they love all of me, not just parts. I want someone who will tell the truth all the time, and not think it is ok to lie even sometimes. Someone who will tell me about their lives and troubles... I mean after all isn't that what a partnership/relationship is? Being open and honest with each other. I should have seen that it was not the case in my ex-relationship... but the saying "love blinds" really did apply to this case.

Is it right that someone you think you know has a "little sister" that you never even heard of? That he met at a place he did not like me to go with him to, that he invited to his apartment without me knowing or being there? NO!!! I see that now, but it was hard at first. I never want to make these mistakes again. I hope I never do. Love hurts more than it helps.