CAR!

I got a car! It's a beautiful Subaru Impreza 2.5 RS.

Feast your eyes on this!

I want

to trust someone. But I don't know if my trust will be misplaced. GRR, I want to know what will happen. Why must I be in the unknown so much?

Relationships

A relationship should not be made unless there is trust, and no doubt about the trust being misplaced. I have trusted too easily, for which I was burned, and now my trust is now harder to come by. However, it is still there for the right people.

People should not need each other. In a relationship, the want and desire is there but the other person should not be needed, simply wanted. I think this is a first step to a happy relationship. If I don't need you, and you don't need me, but we are happy together then that is perfect. That way we still have ourselves to fall back on and will not crumble should something happen. This is hard to put into words, because it sounds as if I don't care, but this is not the case. I care. Too much, sometimes too easily, but I don't want to have to rely on someone for happiness.

I look forward to the future.

Again, I am sorry for somethings I have done. Please understand this. I cannot change the past, and I honestly don't think I would, it did happen for a reason. I am still sorry for it.

profound

Writing on this blog has been something I've done for a long time now, and while I try to be profound I usually just end up writing about the goings on in this ones life. While that might be enough, I wish I could be more open.

Life is something that should be taken in, experienced, and learned from. I have lived, lost, loved, and I try to laugh the whole time. My life is but a breath in the wind; so many people have done so much more... however, every experience that has been given to me has created a lesson that can be learned from. If this mentality is kept, it would be hard to be upset for long. Happiness is a long aspired for dream, and I think I might be getting close.

Thank you all who have contributed to my life's lessons. I am only frightened that I might have hurt some of you, and for that I am sorry.

I'm scared

...give someone a chance and they start stalking you.

So, I went on the date with a kid, one date. It was HORRID anyways.... and I just found out that he has been stalking my myspace (looking at it 50+ times a day). I FEEL VIOLATED. This kid creeps me out so much. I want to hide in a hole...

I told him to never contact me again. I hope he doesn't!

*shivers*

good times

I like being single! Get to flirt with whoever I want. Go out with anyone I want! Kiss people.... Met someone pretty cool though, might have to see where it goes.

It pretty much rocks! HA!

ALSO, I Aced my math exam! WOO HOO!

Life tastes sweet right now.

Howdy do?

Hi all,

Life is going so well. I kind of like being single. I have been asked out by a few guys and it is up to my discretion if I go or not. It's pretty much awesome. :)

I had a clinic in Wray this weekend. It was so fun (beside the fact that Flag tried to kill me a few times).

Now I have more homework than I care to think about. More later.

-me

OMGosh

today was so fun!

I had 5 people to tutor in the math lab and 4 people at once in my accounting session!

And, I am starting to think that single life is kinda fun. :D

I am leaving tomorrow for a riding clinic, and it is going to be amazing, that's right, I already decided...

K. More later.

YAY!

time goes on (so slowly...)

I guess I am feeling better.?.?.?

I did not buy the car, still looking at others. : (

I hope it all pans out soon. I really wish I knew the future and how things turn out. My love life is painful right now, so I want to know if I will ever find a true love, someone who will love me for being me and will feel like they love all of me, not just parts. I want someone who will tell the truth all the time, and not think it is ok to lie even sometimes. Someone who will tell me about their lives and troubles... I mean after all isn't that what a partnership/relationship is? Being open and honest with each other. I should have seen that it was not the case in my ex-relationship... but the saying "love blinds" really did apply to this case.

Is it right that someone you think you know has a "little sister" that you never even heard of? That he met at a place he did not like me to go with him to, that he invited to his apartment without me knowing or being there? NO!!! I see that now, but it was hard at first. I never want to make these mistakes again. I hope I never do. Love hurts more than it helps.

lonely times

Today is a lonely one.

I have found a car that I might look at. It is a Honda crx si. It needs a bit of work, but seems to not need much. Not sure about it though, and I don't have Mike to ask anymore. Sad...

Guess we'll see what happens.