time goes on, and Pink Floyd

It's been four days now. I have not cried today, nor much yesterday, and I think tomorrow will be even better.

I have been keeping busy, each day I do something and go someplace... Work, school, pool hall, ice skating, movies, mare/foal lecture, dinner, and I am going to see Pink Floyd tonight in Denver. :D

Again, I thank God for my friends, and my horses and my family. Without them I would be so much worse off.

Thanks guys! I love you all!

Nothing stays golden after all

When you think you know someone, then you find out about the web of lies that had been woven, the pain is nearly unbearable. I knew of the lies, but I was blind to them. Why? I wish I knew. I hope the mistakes I made will be learned from and not repeated. I hope this dearly, with every fiber of my being.

I need to have learned in order to protect myself against is happening it again.

Reality bites.

All I can really say is thank God for good friends and horses.

First day single Feb. 24, 2009. Today, Feb. 26, 2009.

Breaking up is hard to do... even when you know that the person hurt you more than once. Even though I knew this, I still love him. I know it would not work in the long run, at least it seemed that way in the end... but in the beginning it was amazing, and I was happy. Then things changed.

I broke up with him, and it hurts so much. I know people understand, but I feel all alone in this pain.

I feel like I will never find true love. I feel that I will die alone. Why should anyone love me anyway? I am but a fool....

It sucks ass.