USAFA Graduation

That was as closs a look as I could get of the guest speaker, the Secretary of Defense, Mr. Donald Rumsfeld.

The Thunderbirds! Amazing!

Best photo of the day, it was wonderful.

Thoughts.

I have been thinking, which sometimes equals not a good thing.

Why are people so cruel to one another? I read the news, and almost always have the urge to cry because of something someone did to someone else.

First of all, is it not cruel to the 9/11 victims (that is almost all people living in and loving the US) to create movies that replay the acts of that day? How can anyone want to see the plane that crashed because of terrorists? All I can say is shame on the moviemakers. All of them.

And why stop with the plane crash movie? Why not tell the story of the NYFD heroes? So many questions.

Now my point: It is hard to live as the same species, to breath the same air, to eat the same foods as people who do such horrendous things to other humans as happen every day.
9/11 being of the most upsetting. Here I am eating my lemon tart and somewhere on this earth a child is being beaten by his or her parent. Somewhere a young girl is being raped. There are people planning how to kill their neighbor because they do not fallow the exact same faith as the future killer.

We get mad at the Sheits and Sunies (sp?) because they want the other to die. They want to kill the other because they fallow a different sect of Islam. It makes me sick. Some Christians are not much different. They say "if you are not Christian than you will not go to heaven" in fact they condemn them to hell. They do not, as a general rule, try to kill the followers of Islam, or Judaism, but they do condemn them to hell!?! What are you thinking people?

I have been reading a book about Mary Magdalene. It is a historical fiction. So not all is "real", but some of it, I believe is. It is very interesting, and I find it amazing how little people have changed. In the time of Jesus, people believed what they wanted, and did not care to venture into what Jesus was teaching. And today, people think they believe the truth, but how do we really know what is truth? Most Christians believe the Bible is the truth. Fine, but I will not dismiss the scientific truths about how old the earth is. Sorry, I just will not do it. Maybe some in the Bible is true. Maybe people changed it to fit their fancy some many years ago, and we are too blind to search or believe those who do search to find not only some of the truth, but all the truth. I do not think the Bible says all the truth. I think some of it was withheld hundreds of years ago to cover what ever it was that the high power wanted to hide. And now, just as that higher power wanted, the Christians now believe the remaining Bible is the "whole truth".

Wow, i hope I do not offend too many readers, but this is how I feel. I do not hold you at knife point to accept my feelings. That my friends is up to you.

And another thing. I like Harry Potter. I like the books a lot. Is there something wrong with them?

Show Time

That's correct. It is show time! This weekend is my first recognized 3 day event show. I have been preparing like a mad man for a couple months now, and I think we are ready. More on that after the event passes.

It seems like a sad sequence of events for me. I have a bad day, then a batter day, then a bad day...so on and so forth. A bad day meaning, I miss my old life. A better day meaning, I accept missing my old life. Then back and forth. It's like a freaking roller-coaster.

Today I woke pretty late. I had wanted to get up early and have a head start on things, but I feel no motivation to do anything but ride, and for some strange reason to clean my space of the house. *sigh* Sorry for the complaints. Thank you for reading anyways.

Anywho, this weekend will be lovely! I have not had a busy "no time to think" day in a while, and it will be nice to not feel sorry for myself. Choux is flying in on the first day of the show. Thank you for being here for me! I do not ride until 2:51, so he, you, will get to see all aspects of the show. Are you excited? Think happy thoughts, not bad, crash and burn ones. I need all the help I can get.

Ok, well as for this totally random and possibly extremely boring post, it is over now.

Bye!

One of the most heart breaking bits of life, is when you realize that all the time you spent wanting to go back to your "old life", was a waste of time. Knowing that as the years change, my old life gets farther out of reach is when it hit me. I know that I cannot simply go back to the way things used to be. In my heart I feel that things have not changed, even though for me things have surely changed. It is not fair for me to expect all the old things to be as I remember, when I myself am not the same as I once then.

Hard to understand?

I feel that if I do try to go back, that I will be dissappointed.
"Was that building always here?".
"When did they move?".

But, will that be enough to stop me from trying to get back to the old ways? Is my dream of having nothing change from the past going to be the end of me? What about having frozen memories that I want to press "play" to start over? Will people even be able to think of me as I used to be?

All questions to be answered later. I just hope it does not hurt too bad.

That I am. =)